Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Yesterday was my 4th year anniversary with the man of my life a.k.a Steven Goh! :))))
And he made me a card too! using orgami! so sweet cos he's sooo not the arty farty type! when i went over to his place yday i saw so many crumpled pieces of construction papers on his table and i was like awwwwwwwww! in my heart. :p
Anyway! We went to Sentosa yesterday : )) Unfortunately, it started to rain like 30 mins after we got there and had a short dip in the sea. And the rain was seriously heavy. Damn the weather! but love surpasses all shitty moments (haha :P) and we dumped our stuff in a locker, carrying only his semi-waterproof bag with the important stuff and we walked around in the rain in our swim wear haha! people must have thought we were crazy, but we only had one small towel to share which we had to save for bathing time. There werent exactly proper sheltered places anyway, walking in the rain was better than standing outside the toilet -.-
I bought for him this uber cool Razer gaming mouse called DeathAdder, and a couple of polo tees for us each! Yay now we have a couple tee which is not gay; Ive seen several couples with really gayish couple tshirts (not the customized ones) which totally deflates the boyfriend's machismo thanks to those bright coloured cartoons on the shirts. Anyway I also made him a card :)) I dunno why, but when it comes to making cards for him, i can always think of something nice!
In exchange the man of my life! bought me... this!
It's the Christian Dior's J'adore perfume! I've never used a fragrance before (Im not smelly lor) but I guess I'll have to from now! I like to smell how he wants me to smell heh! :D the perfume came along with this small bottle of the J'adore's body lotion and a Christian Dior pouch which i guess is meant for the perfume but it's big enough to use as a handbag and I like it very much! in fact i think i was more obsessed with the bag than the perfume :X
He also bought me, or should I say us, this couple's diary which has a lot of stuff for us to fill in as a couple to help us keep track of our relationship etc, as the book says haha:>
And he made me a card too! using orgami! so sweet cos he's sooo not the arty farty type! when i went over to his place yday i saw so many crumpled pieces of construction papers on his table and i was like awwwwwwwww! in my heart. :p
Anyway! We went to Sentosa yesterday : )) Unfortunately, it started to rain like 30 mins after we got there and had a short dip in the sea. And the rain was seriously heavy. Damn the weather! but love surpasses all shitty moments (haha :P) and we dumped our stuff in a locker, carrying only his semi-waterproof bag with the important stuff and we walked around in the rain in our swim wear haha! people must have thought we were crazy, but we only had one small towel to share which we had to save for bathing time. There werent exactly proper sheltered places anyway, walking in the rain was better than standing outside the toilet -.-
so we walked from siloso beach to palawan beach and took cover at the playground haha.. the rain poured for a really long time and so we just cuddled together and talked.. one of the many best things about love is that it makes you feel warm and happy even in such dreary situations as this when the blodoy rain ruins ur anniversary plans lol.. : >
the rain stopped at about 6pm, and we played in the waters of palawan beach! we crossed the bridge to the other small stretch of beach where the sand was really soft and perfect for moulding stuff! :D I moulded a person but that stupid man stomped on it when i went into the water so i threw mud at him. And then he began to do handstands (or issit headstands? but u cant stand on your head right? :S) in the water and created huge splashes everytime he did so and it was pretty embarrassing cos there were so many people crossing the bridge and staring at us :/
we played till dark and bathed blah blah and then we took the skyrider! only $5 per person so cheap! the man of my life's not very comfortable with heights haha!! kinda ironic how he's perfectly fine with going deep sea diving-.- i was afraid my slippers would drop into the "forest" and i would have to go home barefooted so i kiapped them really tightly together. kiasi.
for dinner we went to Marina Bay! a delicious steamboat cum bbq treat, bu unfortunately we had to take a taxi to tanjong pagar first to wihdraw cash and den go back again cos they only accepted cash and Marina bay's so ulu there wasnt any ATMs! stupid.
well anyway I go home a 11 40pm only and got scolded by my parents>.<
and oh how can i forget, I actually baked-- no, tried to, bake a cake for our anniversary. It turned out much flatter than desired cos the heart shaped baking pan was larger than required lol and i didnt increase the amount of ingredients accordingly. And thanks to the rain, i hastily stuffed it ino the locker and by the time we retrieved our things in the late evening, I didnt exactly want to eat it. the man of my life sweetly had some bites of it, and so did i after some cajoling, but i decided to throw it away anyway cos the cocoa powder was overwhelming and I could hardly taste the passion fruit paste and I was just scared I'd get a stomachache from eating it la. lol.. baking's so not my forte! (aiya nothing seems to be my forte.) unfortunately i dun have an oven so i cant practise, so whatever!
time to go for lunchbreak! byeee!
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Friday, April 20, 2007
when i love, i love.
but you people just wanna push me and make me unlove.
i can but give me time.
it takes a lot of courage to do it
because once i go
i know i will never turn back.
i have never done so.
sometimes you just become immune
and decide that perhaps to hate is the best way to help you forget
all the things you've said
and all the things you've done.
but you people just wanna push me and make me unlove.
i can but give me time.
it takes a lot of courage to do it
because once i go
i know i will never turn back.
i have never done so.
sometimes you just become immune
and decide that perhaps to hate is the best way to help you forget
all the things you've said
and all the things you've done.
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
I have interview for MOE tmw, but have yet prepared a single thing for it. Im just not exactly enthusiastic to teach. Sure, I think it'd be cool to teach secondary students (primary school kids are lame and JC students would probably overwhelm me), but to do so for 4 years is a turn off. I dont exactly wanna wake up at 6am every morning and eat canteen food and squeeze with fat and smelly students again uggggh. Sigh! When im no passionate about something i just cant get myself motivated. It's high time I do some self-propaganda eh. Anyway I used to wanna be a teacher...!
Bwahhh I just wanna join LTA la will they please please please take me in sobs I dun wanna be a damn teacher bwaaaaaah. I wouldnt have agreed to the interview if not cos of my mum bwaahh give me the scholarship la!
:/
aiya nvm. If I dont get awarded anything it's my own fault that I let myself indulge in sloth too much.
Anyway! Im in love with the Dixie Chicks... They look like they've gon for a lot of botox but their voices (or shld I say the lead singer) are beautiful! My favourites now are Not Ready to Make Nice and Travelling Soldier.. sweet. :)
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and I don’t have time to go round and round and round
Bwahhh I just wanna join LTA la will they please please please take me in sobs I dun wanna be a damn teacher bwaaaaaah. I wouldnt have agreed to the interview if not cos of my mum bwaahh give me the scholarship la!
:/
aiya nvm. If I dont get awarded anything it's my own fault that I let myself indulge in sloth too much.
Anyway! Im in love with the Dixie Chicks... They look like they've gon for a lot of botox but their voices (or shld I say the lead singer) are beautiful! My favourites now are Not Ready to Make Nice and Travelling Soldier.. sweet. :)
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and I don’t have time to go round and round and round
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Sunday, April 15, 2007
i know i sound so malicious in the entry i wrote earlier.
but what do you expect me to do, to feel?
i hate to see them hurt and cry.
and it's not like there is anything i can do to remove the pain substantially because it's others who constantly inflict it.
i love my parents, they dont deserve what they're being put through, they're the best parents.
i'm not ready to make nice.
but what do you expect me to do, to feel?
i hate to see them hurt and cry.
and it's not like there is anything i can do to remove the pain substantially because it's others who constantly inflict it.
i love my parents, they dont deserve what they're being put through, they're the best parents.
i'm not ready to make nice.
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If i had a gun and were told that there will be no legal consequences, I'd shoot him ten times over. since i cant, i will gather all these malevolent feelings of vengeance and hope that he gets jailed and the rest of his pathetic life gets screwed up to the point where everybody despises him like i do. and if he died i would spit on his grave and if anybody were to stop me i'd spit on them too, cos i hate whoever loves him. and you are one such particular person i'd hate for the rest of my life until you stop fucking around and wake to your senses. even if MY parents were only to suffer any health adversaries after this whole thing tides over, if it ever does, i would still blame you and the fucker that i would pay to kill.
i hate yall so much.
i hate yall so much.
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Thursday, April 12, 2007
it's good, you know, to have a job that pays you $48 a day to reply to customers' emails for 1 hour, and surf the web, blog, watch spongebob, basically do-your-thing forthe next 7 hours. I have a good mind to bring my Heroes to work so that I can do something more substantial than blogging everyday haha. at first the humdrumness of such working environment made me eager to find a new job, but then again, I guess I rather do my own thing and get paid for it. it's not like I dun wanna do anything--- there aint anything for me to do!
:P
:P
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
went for my second round of interview for LTA on Monday, which turned out to be a tea session that didnt exactly involve tea sipping and breadcrumbs and biscuit bits carelessly dropping from the corner of your mouth. sad to say, public speaking is not my forte as much as I love to discuss issues and share my opinions, and even more so in front of many guys. well yes, even someone like me who "rather intimidate and socialize" have trouble giving my cents' worth on issues in front of the opposite sex. or perhaps there is no irony in it at all cos I am perfectly fine with being anti-social and not talking.
maybe it's just my hyper-sensitivity, but I thought the LTA guy was looking at me as he said in his most encouraging tone that we should all be honoured to have been shortlisted as the top...18? or 20 or wtv, from more than a hundred applicants.
i guess I can pretty much forget about a second miracle cos practically everyone else there was from Hwa Chong or Raffles, and they are all really outstanding people who give very constructive opinions and have the cca and academic results to back them up. maybe i got to the second round of interview because of my enthusiasm to join the LTA, but even that crazed fanatism about incorporating the works of LTA in the Third World is not enough to surpass what the other candidates can offer. it looks like they are all pretty hyped up about joining the LTA, cos some really just had ways to divert discussion topics on the works of the organization to promoting themselves as scholars!
well nvm i shall cut the pessimistic talk.
yesterday it was raining cats and dogs (hmm, haven used it since entering secondary school!) and I garnered the courage to ask a stranger if she wanted me to shelter her across to wherever she wanted to go. dont ask me why I have to even gather the guts to HELP people, but yeah, I often do when they are strangers, and i guess that's pretty much the reason I am not gonna get the LTA scholarship:/ she was very thankful, and we chatted as I sheltered her to her destination.. it struck me how chance meetings with strangers can often prompt better conversations than with people you actually know.
perhaps, behind that cold, defensive look of most singaporeans is just a warm, talkative self... haha i dunno, but looking back, I probably had this annoyed expression on my face (like how my colleague Peggy said she was scared of me at first cos I looked "fierce") and the lady i sheltered across had that similar expression. but it all dissipated in a second.. humans. haha
maybe it's just my hyper-sensitivity, but I thought the LTA guy was looking at me as he said in his most encouraging tone that we should all be honoured to have been shortlisted as the top...18? or 20 or wtv, from more than a hundred applicants.
i guess I can pretty much forget about a second miracle cos practically everyone else there was from Hwa Chong or Raffles, and they are all really outstanding people who give very constructive opinions and have the cca and academic results to back them up. maybe i got to the second round of interview because of my enthusiasm to join the LTA, but even that crazed fanatism about incorporating the works of LTA in the Third World is not enough to surpass what the other candidates can offer. it looks like they are all pretty hyped up about joining the LTA, cos some really just had ways to divert discussion topics on the works of the organization to promoting themselves as scholars!
well nvm i shall cut the pessimistic talk.
yesterday it was raining cats and dogs (hmm, haven used it since entering secondary school!) and I garnered the courage to ask a stranger if she wanted me to shelter her across to wherever she wanted to go. dont ask me why I have to even gather the guts to HELP people, but yeah, I often do when they are strangers, and i guess that's pretty much the reason I am not gonna get the LTA scholarship:/ she was very thankful, and we chatted as I sheltered her to her destination.. it struck me how chance meetings with strangers can often prompt better conversations than with people you actually know.
perhaps, behind that cold, defensive look of most singaporeans is just a warm, talkative self... haha i dunno, but looking back, I probably had this annoyed expression on my face (like how my colleague Peggy said she was scared of me at first cos I looked "fierce") and the lady i sheltered across had that similar expression. but it all dissipated in a second.. humans. haha
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
mum's birthday is approaching, and im wondering what there is to celebrate and how to, when everything's still broken. i hate it when people wallow in self pity and think that their sorrow is the greatest pain anyone else can feel, when it is all self inflicted and a mere exaggeration of things on their own part. life can be simple, why do you have to go mess it all up? not just for yourself but for everyone else.
the more i hear and see the more numb i feel. sometimes i dont even wanna protect you any longer. If even God helps only those who seek it, what more can I do when you're just one of those who chooses to adamantly abide by delusions?
the more i hear and see the more numb i feel. sometimes i dont even wanna protect you any longer. If even God helps only those who seek it, what more can I do when you're just one of those who chooses to adamantly abide by delusions?
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Sunday, April 08, 2007
I've probably put up the lyrics of this song onmy blog before, but I just have to put it up again... if my relationship with steven has a theme song, it'd be this one. :)
You're a song
Written by the hands of god
Don't get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I'm running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party's over
We will still belong to each other
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
I love you more than all that's on the planet
Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing
You know it's true
Oh baby it's so funny
You almost don't believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady tied to her manners
I'm tied up to this feeling
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
You're a song
Written by the hands of god
Don't get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I'm running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party's over
We will still belong to each other
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
I love you more than all that's on the planet
Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing
You know it's true
Oh baby it's so funny
You almost don't believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady tied to her manners
I'm tied up to this feeling
Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
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Monday, April 02, 2007
went to ECP for a run yesterday and my thighs are cramped today thanks to not having exercised since i started preparing for my prelims. I ran more than 4km without stopping and i suppose that's a great achievement haha! but my face, as usual, turned tomato red and some guys were like, 'Wa! ang ang ah!" (ang means red in hokkien.) Like, oh shut up already. it's not my fault that my facial blood circulation is damn good:/
and muahaha LTA actually shortlisted me for a second round of interview! I was like OMG. I'm hoping they are not calling me back so I can go there to brighten up their day with my crappy lines. My dad said they probably liked me cos I am frank about myself and the answers I gave were not those typical, 'scholar-ly' answers. Bah. I dont think I have high hopes of getting the scholarship, but since Im given the chance, better buck up and put in extra effort instead of procrasinating till the night before the interview. Actually the more I think about the LTA, the more intrigued I am to join it, especially for the fact that my courses would be totally relevant to the organization. I can both improve Singapore's society, and help out in the Third World! aiya nvm dont wanna talk so much about it cos I most likely wont geddit. : (
And I got rejected for the PSC scholarship bwaaah. Wasted my time writing essay for them hmph >.< but like the man of my life! says, only students with straight A's and outstanding CCA records will even stand a chance. What can I expect when I've got a Blemish and only joined a CCA in the second year of my JC life which happens to comprise of only 2 years!
Anyway the man of my life! came down to my house just to see me for a couple of hours cos I was feeling kinda low. We took a walk around the 'outskirts' (ok wtv the word should be) of my house which was pretty romantic considering that it was actually along a long-gang lol.. well anyway there were these shrubs with dainty white flowers and at one particular shrub there were many many dark green bits on the ground. They looked like mini corns, chopped, and I was thinking Oh! so cute! to myself and was about to pick one of these pod/seed/fruit- lookalike when the man of my life! dragged me away in a huff and exclaimed CAREFUL AH! there was this HUGE caterpillar right above where I was crouching. It's like 10 cm long and disgustingly thick, slightly thicker than the average thumb. As I marvelled at it, I saw i squirm and a dark green thing popped out of its ass and dropped to the ground-ful ground of green corn-lookalikes. :/ I deliberately stepped on one later and found out how sof and squishy it is, so im very glad that I didnt pick one up between my fingers-.-
And I'm almost addicted to heroes! sadly Ive got to wait the weekends cos my little sis has school work during weekdays. Hiro is soooo cute LOL. Argh!
and muahaha LTA actually shortlisted me for a second round of interview! I was like OMG. I'm hoping they are not calling me back so I can go there to brighten up their day with my crappy lines. My dad said they probably liked me cos I am frank about myself and the answers I gave were not those typical, 'scholar-ly' answers. Bah. I dont think I have high hopes of getting the scholarship, but since Im given the chance, better buck up and put in extra effort instead of procrasinating till the night before the interview. Actually the more I think about the LTA, the more intrigued I am to join it, especially for the fact that my courses would be totally relevant to the organization. I can both improve Singapore's society, and help out in the Third World! aiya nvm dont wanna talk so much about it cos I most likely wont geddit. : (
And I got rejected for the PSC scholarship bwaaah. Wasted my time writing essay for them hmph >.< but like the man of my life! says, only students with straight A's and outstanding CCA records will even stand a chance. What can I expect when I've got a Blemish and only joined a CCA in the second year of my JC life which happens to comprise of only 2 years!
Anyway the man of my life! came down to my house just to see me for a couple of hours cos I was feeling kinda low. We took a walk around the 'outskirts' (ok wtv the word should be) of my house which was pretty romantic considering that it was actually along a long-gang lol.. well anyway there were these shrubs with dainty white flowers and at one particular shrub there were many many dark green bits on the ground. They looked like mini corns, chopped, and I was thinking Oh! so cute! to myself and was about to pick one of these pod/seed/fruit- lookalike when the man of my life! dragged me away in a huff and exclaimed CAREFUL AH! there was this HUGE caterpillar right above where I was crouching. It's like 10 cm long and disgustingly thick, slightly thicker than the average thumb. As I marvelled at it, I saw i squirm and a dark green thing popped out of its ass and dropped to the ground-ful ground of green corn-lookalikes. :/ I deliberately stepped on one later and found out how sof and squishy it is, so im very glad that I didnt pick one up between my fingers-.-
And I'm almost addicted to heroes! sadly Ive got to wait the weekends cos my little sis has school work during weekdays. Hiro is soooo cute LOL. Argh!
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