In recent years I often find myself building this defensive wall whenever I am in a new environment, not eager to interact with people I don't know. Anti-social is the word, eh? I thought about it on my way home from work just now, and i realized that it's not because I dont like to talk with people; in fact, I love a good conversation any day. What holds me back is the perception that no one is really nice the more you grow up. It may be mere skepticism on my part and perhaps I shouldnt be so cynical, but ever since I stepped into JC, I've seen enough to shed the secondary school innocent belief that most people are genuinely nice. so many people are nice towards you because they want something from you, or they think they can somehow gain something. so nowadays I dont really bother with acquaintances anymore. I've come to realize that at the end of the day, you just need those few real friends whom you know will be there for you when you meet a crisis. Friends whom you can share a comfortable silence with. I don't see the point in being friends with people who are there for the moment, just so you wouldnt look like a loner, or just for the sake of mindless talk and 'girl fun'.

That's why I have cher and hwei, cos they're the best girl friends that one can ever have;) these are the durable and everlasting friends like 3-in-1 coffeepowder. :X

Of course, it doesnt mean that I think reclusing oneself is the best. Yeah I concede that everyone needs friends aside from some true friends. But I still wont give much time to people I don't like or I know aint the type of person I'd wanna befriend. Call me stubborn/hostile/anti-social, but it really makes no sense at all to waste my time on these people.

cher's bday:)
anyway I caught the sneak preview of Frank Miller's 300 with steven and his friends on Wed. I must admit that it's proabably the best movie I've ever watched, along with Pan's Labyrinth and The Departed. I thought the depiction of Asians as promiscuous slave-drivers with repugnantly hideous faces was a lil discriminating though. The narrator or whoever says "...Asia's best fighting force" and you see the scene change to these weirdo metal masked men and some deformed looking monsters and I'm like 'eh? I dont look like that can?' haha. But it's just a movie la. Anyway I usually cringe at gore, but in 300, the gore's definitely justified. And I love the war cries haha.

love!
ching