Monday, January 02, 2006
unprepared.
im so not ready for school. doubt anyone is. i feel so tired, just wanna sleep for a couple of more days. my mood's pretty bad recently. my mum keeps on picking on me, i feel like screaming at her to shut up. every 10 lines she speaks to me, 6-7 are scolding me. It's my damn fault for every thing that goes wrong in the house. she aint happy with anything i do. told her my new years resolution was to wash the toilet once every two weeks and she still complained and scolded me instead of saying "good". whenever i talk to her she just gives me that irritated face. i can even get scolded for asking a damn question like "where are we going later?" and "can i take ah han (my lil sis) out for a movie tmw?". wth man. during lunch she was watching some madarin drama and she would make comments aloud, since no one replied her i would be like "yes?" and guess wad, she ignored me and called my little sis instead. it happened twice. and steven doesnt exactly help. our time clashes pretty badly now, cos he wakes up at 3pm everyday, sleeps again in the evening, wakes up at night, and doesnt sleep till 4am. i wake up at 10 to 11am (not like i have a choice.), wait for him to wake up, do some work, get scolded by my mum of cos, do some chores... and i gotta sleep at 12 to 1am everyday (again i have no choice. mum's orders.) we do chat over the phone but not for vv long. sigh. nvm. just let him do wad he wants since he finished his A's. i've got my own A's to worry abt.still haven completed my hw, and i still cant be bothered. i feel like soaking in jaccuzi in the dark and sleep away. maybe if it's not too cold tonight i will do just that. my mum has convinced me that being out of the house is better den being at home. i know she's probly having menopause, but i resent the fact that she ONLY picks on me. it's like, i MUST wake up when she tells me to while my older and younger sis can go on sleeping. like wth? im throwing a tantrum perhaps. but at least i'm doing so in words. stm ppl need a break ya know.love,ching.
ching gave some lovin' at
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